me tricking myself into making friends by treating everybody like we might start dating (i.e., being shameless & silly & sharing my opinions openly because "Well, I Need To Be Fully Comfortable With A Partner, So Let's Just Find Out If We Vibe!" instead of being weird & scared & ferrety because "Oh God, This Person Could Be A New Friend OMG A NEW FRIEND?! DO NOT SCREW IT UP OH GOD")