I start believing all kinds of discouraging whack shit about myself sometimes. I feel like I'll just die meaningless and be a joke and the way I exist is an insult to all the forces that work to keep a alive. And then, I find that it's just a fkd up mood, that's why all these shitty thoughts are coming to me. Now I'd be damned if I stayed that way. "N**** why you tripping get your mood right". So i fix my mood, then fix my thought. I just wanna scream all this pain in my bones out.