Certainly can’t make a decision for you, but I WILL say, if you make any decision out of love and not fear, it will always work out. For background, I’m a mom of 3. 8,8, and 3. I just knew my family wasn’t complete with 2. I had my youngest at 37. I just turned 40 and I feel better and healthier than ever. Love is a never ending wellspring. We have a strong faith, and believe in Grace, God, and His abundance and faithfulness.