I can understand that feeling.. how devastated u are now. But in my case, Allah uji dgn dislocated elbow. Terjatuh & tulang tgn tercabut dr soket dia. Sekelip mata Allah tarik nikmat tgn sebelah, x dpt berfungsi like normal for few MONTHS..masa tu rasa gelapnya dunia. Mcm mana nk drive? Nak mkn? Nak pakai baju? Nak pakai tudung? etc.. tak pernah terlintas kt kepala Allah nak uji dgn cara mcm ni...