For me (and I know for many other people too) the Holidays are the most magical yet most painful time of the year. Those who need to sit down on a table where some of the closest family members are missing really feel the pain. The absence. I try so hard to stay happy and positive for the one who are here. But inside I often feel broken. So for those who are in similar situations: I am senile all my love and strength your way. P.S. dad, sister, brother, grandpa — I miss you all.