Mediocrity didn't give me awards, no. It gave me the motivation to chase those awards. It gave me the determination to defeat whatever I was before. I gotta admit, I'm way far better than the old me. Those days of douting, feeling insecure, giving up, inconsistent, are fucking over, period. I realized that I must adjust to this regimen - of hurting, collapsing, and picking myself up. Learning to manoeuvre through the hurting and pain. Things got complicated sometimes, but that's life right?