God loves you and if you have repented and received Christ as Savior then you are forgiven. If God loves and forgives you, then you can love and forgive yourself. If you can love and forgive yourself then you can love and forgive others. Keep going, keep growing. https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=JMuJcrolgUA&si=48Zmd6mJHeVD-mEp&fbclid=IwAR0Ark32pazyQRPKuYVtjp9546MyElRCr5rMDywBgwYCMmRNX2lTPKJL4nU&mibextid=NOb6eG