or would i rant about it with my friends about how stressful it is. or could i be in another field, exploring and starting again? would i be happier? i would probably rant again about that new job. chances are i would probably never be satisfied. maybe i would end up in vietnam, doing something else, be with my family because time is short. would i like it better than japan. would i then hate myself for making that decision? or maybe i could end up in another country, somewhere else not vietnam.