Been realizing more and more my life feels like an out of control freight train full of rush and reckless decisions. Never really gave myself time to ever recover and or heal simply because I chose not to realizing that it could come back to haunt me. So much has caught back up to me and I feel myself shutting down, shying away from love, hating fake family and so much more. I really need guidance on how to heal at this point 🥲