August is the month I was born , and the month that the most influential people in my life who no longer stand with me was their birthdays also... my heart hurts to celebrate when they can't... I love the people who remembered me, but it hurts to be remembered when I break to a million pieces from the loss... daily I try it's been a year with one and 3 months with the other and worse is another one rolls in next month to hurt again... my brain just needed an unload