And to even type this it took me more than 3 weeks. My skin is stressed, I got acne more these weeks than my whole life, my hair has never been so unmanagable, I'm dehydrated, my IBS is all over the place, my mobile is broken, my work is getting hard day by day. I lost all the progress I claimed in fitness. My instagram has been unactive. Above all, I have no hope I will ever be back again the same way or feel the same way I was before 8 years. It feels like I have fallen off into a drain.