I accept my role in this, I admit that I am weak as fuck when it comes to him, he was the only person who I could tolerate and actually want to be around, he was funny and smart and I enjoyed him so yes I am at fault but I made it clear that I love him and want him back and he knowingly and with malicious intent used me again. It's just a shit situation and a terrible thing to do to someone who you know is mentally ill and unstable