Half_a_century old. I never thought I'd be this sad on such a happy day. This day is supposed to be a time for celebration. Yet I can't find a reason to be joyful even just for this so-called special day. I no longer see what made today a special day if all I ever feel is the emptiness in my heart. I wish this will just simply go away but can't tell when. I always tell myself that you're at peace with our Creator. And you are happy with the angels in heaven. You are one of them watching over me.