I keep thinking about all the ways I was forced to mask who I was as a child. I still hate making eye contact, it feels wrong. Too intimate, maybe? My parents would hold my head and force me to make eye contact. I used to whistle a lot when I was happy, until I kept getting told it was annoying. I would giggle to myself when I was proud of myself, until I was teased. I still do it, just rarely. People would get after me for taking things to literally, then for not taking things serious enough.