When you get that phone call, the one that changes everything, it is like you break apart into a million tiny fragments and this deep, dark force enters to hold you together. It settles in every part of you like a blanket covering you in grief and a pain that is so excruciating you aren’t sure how you will take your next step. But you do, because while they are gone, you are still here. You still have to get up, get dressed, do stuff.