Why must you give something to prove yourself? You don't have to give anything to please anyone. With your PHD you still kowtow? Wake up girl. Stay out from this mentaliti tuan hamba yang kena mengabdi, berkorban. Tok nenek saya pun tak buat macam ni. Yang awak perlu gembirakan adalah diri sendiri, your parents, your children. Diluar dpd ni, just IGNORE. Doesn't matter if they hate you. Tak mati pun. Enjoy your life, use your hard earned money for yourself - pergi shopping and manjakan diri.