I just came to the realization that i still have unhealed child trauma that i’ve been ignoring for many years, and there are certain circumstances that’ll trigger it. I feel like i never truly enjoyed my childhood as i had to take care of myself since my parents were always busy… no wonder why i’ve got an anxious attachment style, i feared being alone as a kid and i don’t want that to happen to the adult me although i’ve learned to love and enjoy my solitude. It’s quite paradoxical