Actually, I knew it. That she always tries to protect me. Even though she was crazy and arbitrary, she always protect me. From the loneliness of not having a mother, from the fear of not being able to communicate. The girl who came into my life without hesitation and eventually made me laugh. So I kept swimming. To save the child who is afraid of water if she falls into it. Because she always protect me. I wanted to have at least one thing that could protect her from.