I’ve never wanted to be dead, but just “not here” anymore. I think it’s a big reason I find solace and escape with sleeping. One phrase that I learned has helped me stay and is easy to repeat when I feel like I’m drowning - “do it tomorrow” - the idea that I can always push it to tomorrow. Nothing hasty now. I don’t think once you have gone that deep that it ever truly goes away. I still think about it often to be honest, but at least, right now, I can shake it off. So an idea popped in…