Having a too-close encounter with someone targeting my child has affected me just as expected. The only time I feel calmness is when he is near, even if I know where he is when we’re apart. While working I feel a general sense of nervousness and unease. Nighttime is the worst. Being unconscious feels so vulnerable. After 2 nights co-sleeping I knew he needed some normalcy. I may be struggling but I know what HE needs… so I slept on the floor outside his room. 🫠 Baby steps for me.