I think my problem is expecting life to not be hard. Life is hard. Everyday you wake up with a past and a future. We cannot change the past and the dumb mistakes we made but the future of a new day can be a blank state. What happened yesterday doesn’t have to pour into today. Your life might not change in a day but we can put energy into creating better days. There are ghosts reminding you of your past but we can forgive ourselves in order to save our future self. To messing up and loving life.