My heart was aching that day. I had different scenarios run through my mind. How happy I would be just to be there to see my baby girl come into this world. How happy I would be just hold her. How happy I would've been to scoot over over on the hospital bed so we both could just lay there together holding our baby. Changing a nb diaper again. Holding her skin to skin. The baby cries where they barely could make a sound. The little hospital beanies with the bow.