You'll keep chasing and chasing until you are Old. Joy isn't found on the Outside.... You need to find that light on the inside. I can tell you that the only difference between me and you is that I'm happy now and you can be too. Being happy is your choice, They're a lot of things in your life that should make you smile, make you grateful to be alive. There are people who love you and you have your health too, Sure there are always things to work on but that's part of Life