Post natal depression- perfectly normal, start with some self care, even if it is just a face mask for 5 mins or find a funny tv series to binge on in between feeds and naps, get yourself your favourite beverage and really stop and sip. Make sure you get outside during the day in the sun for at least 30 minutes, take baby with you. Mother of 3 and I totally understand where you are coming from. Above all, know whatever you are feeling now is temporary, things do and will get better 🫶🏽