Mungkin awak keliru sebab mixed feelings. Rasa marah, rasa lega, rasa was² kalau dia sayang awak kenapa dia tidak hormati awak.. mungkin awak rasa dikhianat, rasa terbuang, rasa hina, rasa kecil, mixed feelings. Sorry you have to go through this. You berhak marah. It is normal feeling bila dikhianat.