You’re not failing, sweetie. None of us has it figured out. We just try, and hope for the best. My “baby” turns 18 next weekend, and I’m still just trying and hoping for the best. You got this, but don’t think that the first 6 weeks is anything but survival. And I know you didn’t imply this, but if you feel like you’re going to hurt her, put her down somewhere safe, and walk away. She’ll be ok for a few minutes while you collect yourself