In two weeks time, my seven date self promoted UK tour starts. I’m anxious… Begging people to attend the gigs slowly eats away at my soul. As it stands I’m making a significant personal loss just to cover the basics of paying the venues and expenses of my four piece band and 6 support slots. I’m afraid of having my band, venues and supports looking down on me due to low attendance numbers and it triggers a lot of shame. I’m constantly fighting self judgement of delusion, fraud and worthiness