A continuation of Social ineptitude or lack of intelligence. Not to mention my brothers friends weren’t exactly peaches to me. I’ve always have been disconnected from everything around me, and sometimes inside myself. I continue to not understand things around me, they are incredibly overwhelming, but most don’t know this about me and think I’m doing ok. I always feel as if there is no solution, but to wait for the end. I want real, trusting connection, but I don’t allow myself that.