Lately napansin ko lagi ako umiiyak. -- di naman siya bad thing for me actually. I used to be so controlling of my emotions, na ang acceptable lang na emotion na pinapakita ko sa lahat is happy. Feeling ko kasi when I'm not smiling, wala ako value ganon. And I've been conditioned to think that sadness is an absolute - negative - emotion. I spent years trying to skate through life not dealing with my sadness and now, I both fear and welcome the fact that all those years are catching up to me.