Sadly I know this feeling and how utterly isolating it is. Almost like you want to scream and yell at the universe about 'WhyTF me?!' but you don't know if it even bothers listening. As far as a homebody you won't meet someone more homebound than a want to be content creator. People like us who cannot stand the human race wind up being homebodies who enjoy people watching for pleasure, but still know we are missing out. Broken people exist more than we realize they are just hard to find.