Why would you give up something that is the best thing that ever happened to you though? Shouldn't you fight to ask yourself why am I having doubts? Shouldn't you ask yourself if I probably don't know enough and need to learn more? Shouldn't you search for God's love? To me when your love is geared towards the temporary world and its mirage you lose all fear cus this world is all you see, that's when your heart has gone blind.