My body is so tired but my heart is filled with dread and my stomach so bad I thought I had  appendicitis last night. I will never be the same person I was before this. These next 4 years I cannot see myself coming out and being the 24-28 year old child me dreamt of. I feel like my love and my life was robbed from me. I was failed by my neighbors, my coworkers, women just like me. I am horrified