Some advices: 1. Have a community, friends, classmates, people you can trust. It's hard to leave when you don't have economic independence, but is really important, and encouraging, knowing that there's people looking out for you and you will have somewhere to go. 2. Be safe, you matter so much 3. In the meantime while you figure it out, like finding a job, a scholarship, getting help from someone, know that is not your fault. Not being dependent, not their hate, or even having mixed feelings