I went from buzzing with good vibes to fury and sadness

Can't keep up with the emotional Rollercoaster. Anger, grief, fear, loathing, rage, pain.

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Lots going on currently. The sun is going through an intense phase. We are all getting solar energy. If I don’t have enough water in my system I get cranky and don’t feel well. 🥰

It’s our body and mind’s way of coping with grief. Please be kind to yourself and let yourself feel all the feels. Do something just for you every day. Sending you lots of love. 🫶🏻

Day 1: Sad & exhausted, took a personal day. Thought about shaving my head. (Didn’t.) Day 2: Wore all black funeral attire to work and avoided Rs as much as possible. Rage present all day, just below the surface. Day 3: Wore all black clothes (now ongoing, silent protest). Called an R friend who voted against T. (She’s an old-school fiscal conservative, not a crazy, hateful R.) Somehow made me feel better. I know the real battle lies ahead. Let’s save our energy & preserve our mental health.

Meet-up and/or talk/bitch/drink with friends. It really helps so much. Also, watch less MSNBC (none, if you can avoid it). It’s time for a long break from the constant aggravation. We’ll all need our sanity & strength for post-January 20th.

Ironically, I feel more in control of my emotions than usual. I’ve always had a lot of anxiety around people pleasing, making me very reactive. Now that I realize how awful most people are, it’s like a cold simmering rage, and I don’t give a FUCK what anyone else thinks of me.

I’m validating you, I’m feeling like a stranger in my own country and I’m more fortunate than a lot of people, I’m white middled aged, overweight women for the most part I’m invisible and kind too people as much as possible. no more, after Tuesday the gloves are off, I’m gonna wear anti Trump shirts, anti Trump hats, what do I have left to lose, I just feel like after my father died in Vietnam before I was born in 1968, I can have the courage to fight back in my own country!!!

Good to know I’m not alone