A couple weeks ago I do a wellness check on my friend who hasn't showed up to work, me and his sister find him dead A few days ago, in a moment of weakness, I let the words of a love interest reaffirm the worst thoughts I have about myself and I almost did something that I'd regret Today, my best friend has decided to blame me for all of her problems, and make me feel like the biggest burden. When do things get easier? I desperately need them to get easier. I'm barely holding it together.