Having a hard time seeing all these happily married guys on here. I'm very glad I'm divorced. He was a bully and emotionally abused me. You think you find the one and have a happy future ahead. I never thought I'd feel so alone at age 44. Only been on one date in 6 years. Of course I've hooked up several times. But only satisfies one small need for a small amount of time. I'm ready to fall in love again and get my truly important needs met. Like cuddles on a cold rainy day. GayThreads