I was 19 when I married an abusive narcissist who hated my guts but because I was raised by a narcissist it’s all I knew. With him I had nothing, especially after becoming a sahm. 2nd relationship I thought I was smarter & would never give a man power so I took on everything & found the worlds biggest moocher, another narcissist who abused me in a whole different way. It took finding my 1st bf and the only guy who ever really liked me to realize I’d been self-sabotaging my entire life.