I haven't painted in months. I don't play my piano. I don't listen to music and find ways to be creative anymore. I love painting, I love my piano, I love creativity and if I'm not actively doing these things it's a sign of severe depression, but no one sees it. I work and come home to sit by myself in front of a television. I isolate. It's starting to get the best of me and I can't get out. I don't expect anything to change it only gets worse.