I feel you wholeheartedly, beautiful ! Our time will come, in the meantime, I was told by many ppl who once felt the same way to stop thinking about it and just let it happen. Easier said than done, cuz I drove myself crazy for years, trying to understand why me. But now I’m at peace, went to a few doctors, saw a therapist. I’m chyllin, our time will come beautiful 🤞🏾🖤 and it will more than you could ever dream of. 😍😍 love you girl.