Im sitting here again in the chemo chair the mental emotions and thoughts are overwhelming yet I feel so different than all people around me, a whole new crew per say the ones who id seen last 6-8 months most are finished now yet I stay and continue. I see fear and unknown and worry and yes even hope in them and hope they see a bit of that in me but I'm not sure anymore so many years so many rounds so many ups and downs. I feel separated even in the infusion center surrounded by people