You have done well to put yourself in a safe place. Betrayal is trauma. Trauma does not just disappear, once your in a safe place. If you don't take steps to understand your part of the relationship and how you landed at the worse part of your betrayal, there's a possibility that this could happen to you again! Get some help. I did. I decided to get help.. Look up Pure Desire they have a mens group for porn / sex addiction and the Pure Desire also has Betrayal and Beyond for women. Now I know.