I had paralyzing PPA/OCD with my son. So much so I started seeing a somatic therapist when he was 5 months old. He’s almost 3 years old, and I still see her. I could barely leave my house. My husband works at night and I was sure I would die before he got home. I never could sleep without my child, we still cosleep and it kept me functional when he was an infant. The intrusive thinking was so intense, I was constantly sobbing. Ugh, it was the HARDEST part and I had a tough pregnancy/birth.