Completely overwhelmed, since it’s the holidays you wanna “see” your kids but any other day you don’t. You NEVER wanna get them but you wanna “see” them. But I’m wrong because I think it’s toxic asf for you to come around a few sparse times a year to see the children you made and want no real bond with them so I say no. You can coparent or you can disappear. Because at the end of the night when these babies crying trynna figure out why you’re not present or lying to them I gotta wipe the tears