Hyper independence is my trauma response, so asking someone to help me in any way takes A LOT — and it’s really hurtful when they don’t help. Part ego, part disappointment. It’s why I’ll always say that I don’t need help or just opt to figure things out on my own — I really just don’t want to be disappointed. And if someone doesn’t come through, I’ll just NEVER ask them for anything again. I’m still working through healing from that.