Sweetheart, altho you love your Grandma and Grandpa please be happy for them. I don’t mean to sound callus but I lost my husband of 62 years last Jan 13 . I have experienced what I thought was a broken heart as my chest has felt like it is going to explode, even after all this time. The loneliness is the worse thing I have ever felt in 84 years. I have prayed and asked God to take me, I have lived long enough and this is not living. Don’t misunderstand me, I would never end my life on my own.