Honesty time - What I fear most that I just realized at age 36, is that I fear myself. I can't control myself. I can't be rooted in place. I can't get over the things I can't change. I can say no. I can't see what is obvious in front of my face. I can't abide by the laws of the social norms. Strangley, I do admire these qualities as well because they keep me interesting.