I appreciate everyone's encouragement. But I really am starting to feel like I can't keep pushing after all the repeated fails the last few months. The pain, anxiety and just motivation to push on are all out of control right now. It will really have to be something positive on Tuesday to get me out of this feeling. I'm exhausted. I don't feel any stability or consistency in my life that I need and crave. I just feel like I'm suspended in a void with no light at the end to seek. 💚 Y'all.