No one can describe to you the pain that comes with the loss of a spouse. Christmas is one of those times when I fully realize the depth of how I miss my wife. It occurred to me on Wednesday that I did not actually have any conscious practice around Christmas; I’d simply fallen in line with her established forms for us as a family! Christmas was such a big deal for us but, in her absence I have found myself foundering fir the second Christmas in 16years!!! This one was particularly difficult.