Currently experiencing a contradicting mindset where I feel like I've separated sex & intimacy after my past relationships bc they've left me so disappointed Now I just want to have my sexual needs met & be hedonistic about it Yet, I prefer to keep my body count low & I'm intentional about my partners, so I'm not looking for ONS's So it's just this consistently unsure mindset on if I'm going to "experience" more people, or keep waiting until I'm in a relationship again (it's the latter)