As I Wander Through My Web Of Endless Thoughts, And Clouded Heart Upon Hearts... There's A Vast Siege Of Doubts, A Wonder, Or A Longing For Someone Out Of My Own Reach... Ones Heart Is In Turmoils... Apart; Always Loves One Through All Of My Time For 14+ Years Upon Her Passing... The Other I Have Known For Apart Of My Twenties, And She's Always "My Dearest..." Then Something Anew???That's Gotten Oneself Blindsided, And Exhilarated... Where I Feel, Alive An Frustrated, Or Painfully Confused.....